劉若英 - 訓練

詞：劉若英  曲：劉若英

製作人︰賈敏恕  編曲︰李燕飛



他們笑我太過夢幻

竟然相信天長地久

愛情本來  就包含了放開手

但我怎能忘記  你擁抱的溫柔

你說的永遠  是最悲哀的快樂

                                                                               

我也覺得自己可笑

重回孤單有什麼難呢

房間換個顏色  睡前  別說晚安了

傷口  再疼  也訓練自己能癒合

陽光雖刺眼  就算會流淚  也學會睜開眼

                                                                               

我訓練我自己

去忘記  很瘋狂  很虛幻

兩個人  建築過的家

慢動作  再播放  不遺憾

只屬於  我們幸福的喧嘩

我用我的勇敢  和你沉默抵抗

                                                                               

我也覺得自己可笑

重回孤單有什麼難呢

房間換個顏色  睡前  別說晚安了

回憶再冷  也訓練自己別失溫

陽光雖刺眼  就算會流淚  也學會睜開眼

                                                                               

我訓練我自己

輪流睡  在兩個  枕頭上

才不會  失眠看晨光

慢動作  反覆讓  當時的夢想

離開地很瀟灑

是你讓我明白  愛只是過程

                                                                               

訓練自己不去想

永恆

Class 5 - 無所

What were the biggest news in this week?

One thing for me is that I was qualified with the application to exchange to CBS.

This is a surprising thing to me.

Cause I've never thought I have the chance to get the quota of CBS.

I had no idea that how the professors judged the grades on interview.

One of my mates will be for Italy out of my expectation,

but he still has a chance to go for Spain with his on-the-way application.

And I have to say thanks to you, again.

Without your encouragement on MSN,

I didn't know how long I will keep this bad mood.

You made me find myself, really. I have to say so.



Besides, our 12th president will definitely be Ma.

Thanks for the salvage from the god.

We have been in a torture for long,

and what people in Taiwan need is prosperity and peace.

Neither curse nor attack is preoccupied around our society.

More important, we don't have to tell the races and independence of this island so clearly.

As long as we have strong economy and genuine ability,

we will be recognized by others.

That's the same sense to the international diplomacy and social environment among people.



But things are still the same that I have to carry on learning.

That's all.

Class 4 - 散漫褪去

開學過了四週，卻提不起勁來用功

15學分似乎不算太沈重，煩人的討論課變少了

FRM覺得很貴又不太想報名，提升身價的證照感覺是要用錢換來的

在整理自己的過程中，感覺自己天真得可笑

譬如拿友情來說，我很害怕被丟棄

所以會在被甩開之前選擇冷漠對待

對朋友的愛情，我會希望他們常常久久

或許是一種代表，一種紀念

但不可能為難沒有心的兩個人去做這樣的事情



人際關係薄弱了，資源少了

就得靠自己好好活著

不夠堅強，所以總是想找個可以依賴的目標

或許在我身上不容易看出這點

因為「不想認輸」吧...

至於，比較快樂可不可以認輸!?

我想我輸得十分徹底



最近徵才週，許多活動玲瑯滿目

身邊的同學急著找暑期intern

這樣的工作可以說是很少很少

或許受到houston和fe的影響吧......

大家都會建立起不找個工作就等於沒用的心態

只是，最近的金融景氣並不是太好

「信用風險」這個原始的問題成了最嚴苛的考驗

想到曾經看過的動畫這麼說著：就是因為簡單，所以才顯得困難



Life is simple, but how to lead a simple life is the hardest challenge to human.

我想重振起鼓的時候到了

我會強迫自己快點收心，把時間分配好

該例行的用功、娛樂、運動、學習

最好都能一一實踐

朝著我所認同的朋友他們的方向前進



至於，剩下的，

等我有心情再去默默琢磨吧...

Best regards to myself.

Colbie Caillat - Realize

[V1:] Take time to realize,

That your warmth is. Crashing down on in.

Take time to realize,

That I am on your side

Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

                                                                               

But I can't spell it out for you,

No it's never gonna be that simple

No I cant spell it out for you

                                                                               

[C:] If you just realize what I just realized,

Then we'd be perfect for each other

And will never find another

Just realized what I just realized

We'd never have to wonder if

We missed out on each other now.

                                                                               

[V2:] Take time to realize

Oh-oh I'm on your side

Didn't I, didn't I tell you.

Take time to realize

This all can pass you by.. Didn't I tell you



But I can't spell it out for you,

No its never gonna be that simple

No I can't spell it out for you.

                                                                               

[C:] If you just realized what I just realized

Then we'd be perfect for each other

Then we'd never find another

Just realized what I just realized

We'd never have to wonder if

We missed out on each other now.

                                                                               

[V3:] It's not always the same

No it's never the same

If you don't feel it to.

If you meet me half way

If you would meet me half way.

It could be the same for you.

                                                                               

[C:] If you just realized what I just realized

Then we'd be perfect for each other

Then we'd never find another

Just realized what I just realized

Then we'd be perfect for each other

Then we'd never find another

Just realized what I just realized

We'd never have to wonder

Just realized what I just realized

                                                                               

OoOoOOo

                                                                               

Missed out on each other now

Missed out on each other now

 

Class 3 - Low Tide

｢我很好...｣

就算不好，我也會這麼說。

現在，我不想用真正的自己去面對別人

把認真奉獻給別人太辛苦了，對吧?!

有過這樣的想法，我的快樂或許是想見到別人的痛苦吧...

什麼貢獻、犧牲，那些太忍辱負重了

但不會換什麼長久的、真誠的、分享的

回想起來，就用這段話形容再貼切不過了

｢就像個失婚的婦女，

但是撫養的小孩卻說爸爸娶的新媽媽人很好。｣



真是好笑，嘲笑完我，再嘲笑你。

你所謂的大家，根本就是繞著自我中心旋轉

藉由自己依靠大家，然後把這樣的理論當成是正確的

那我為何不覺得如此?

感情上的信任或是依賴，

最後都會變成一種負擔。

如果是這樣，我們不需要太深的交情，太多的交集。

找到利益可圖之處，利用完彼此，然後丟棄

等到下次這樣的機會出現時，再來攀附彼此。



不再是女蘿，想當驕傲的玫瑰，

當好意接近時，武裝自己展開全面戒備；

不成就牡丹，要變化為彼岸花

當看著眾人群聚的孤單時，享受單獨的狂歡；

不再是鳶尾，不等待與水仙同時開花



收起言語、表示沉默

走自己的路，然後去體驗你們說的｢自己快樂就好。｣





｢我也覺得自己可笑

重回孤單有什麼難呢

房間換個顏色　睡前　別說晚安了

傷口再疼　也訓練自己能癒合

回憶再冷　也訓練自己別失溫

陽光雖刺眼　就算會流淚

也學會睜開眼｣

Class 2 - Death Reborn Revolution

Difficult loading and confusing cases were spreading on the desk.

I was so tried to face all the work because of my distraction or jealousy.

In this chaotic period,

I tried to reflect on myself and found that I was also affected by the peers.

Sometimes, the factual society I have to face in the future makes me cynical and frustrated.

I want to believe what I did and chose.

But, in fact, I was somehow knocked out by the cruel and disability.

Who aren't be of ability to make achievement and become famous?

For myself, I would like to believe success is step by step.



I am the normal and normal to the earth.

"Miserere mei." Give some mercy on me.

I want a mentor to guise my life.

Cause I've been walking alone for a long time.

I want a pal or bosom friend.

Cause I am too weak to stand any independence and isolation.



Where's my happiness and tenderness?

Where's my peace in mind?

Where's the right way?

I hope I do not go wrong so far.

I rely on the God, do I?

Hope this semester will give me the answer.

Class 1 - Gotta Go My Own Way

This was the first week of new semester.

Beside of the new courses and the application of sharing student,

I found that many classmates try to reform their appearance and express their new resolution!?

For myself, I pretended that I was a cool one and behaved indifferently to this peers.

The reason I did that because of the lack of confidence on classmates and friendship.

In addition, some were declined to "depend on" other's decision to make their determination.

Is It hard for them to be independent of others?

Or am I too subject to judge the people I am tired of in the right way?



Yes, I know myself clearly.

I tried to imagine that I was desperate from other's field and stayed alone.

But I just wanna protect my soul for peace and intactness.

When I need someone's help, where are you, guys?

I don't deem the words you said for errands or routine.

If you can not pay some attention on people,

you shall not make a promise or commitment to somebody like me.

Promise is a big word no matter what kind of the form it's expressed by you or me.

Moreover, the question that why are you here and where do you go forward is clear in your mind. We are permitted to ask for some reference but not to quest what your decision is.

The chill and silent wall around me is easy to transpires.

Only if you would like to render your sincerity and inner notions to me will you get the return from my soul and appreciation.



15 credits, hmm...it was a hard work for my last semester.

I used all my efforts to survive from that.

Many of my classmates urge themselves to get 18 this semester.

I assume it should be a huge loading to me.

But why not to give it a try.

Just being silence and talking nothing are the simple way to pass the course, right?

Oops...how cynical I am.



Sound like a pathetic beginning of my new semester.

Well...let it be. I will encourage myself to study hard and to be myself.

Altruism is only existent in the myth and dream.

FRM goes on.

And my life goes on.