Lesson 17 Wretched

I've been almost broken and frustrated.

Though I know the world focusing on the result only but not the process,

may I ask for some mercy from the God?

I need repaired outside and refilled inside.

Would you like to pay one leg and hand to me?

I hope I could have done better then......

I feel myself so imperfect and dirty.

Why did they have better performances then me?

Where did I go wrong on my efforts and destiny...?

Sigh, I wanna be jealous without admiring but try to catch up with you.

As Kcage said that I have to find out my own direction,

not waiting for the answer and help,

but concretely to execute what I want and what I need.

I have no time.....and I am no longer the boy in the past.

I'll be over you soon...