Lesson 1 始業

The first week of beginning term was really “fabulous.”

All mates of finance were familiar with this embarrassing situation to dividing into groups for our teamwork cause of mature age we had.

Our term began on this Wednesday, in addition of Moon Festival, and there was a required course on Mondays we had never taken.

Even, we didn’t know who the teacher is.

(It seemed that he or she didn’t want to have a make-up class for the Monday one. However, my schedule are full of reading materials.)

Actually, this semester started only five days but I have a large number of journals to read and many meetings to participate in with discussing the academic topic.

Every additional works like thunder shooting on my head so that I am little exhausted.

If there hadn’t been any holidays as a buffer, I wouldn’t have had enough time to finish every reading.

Weeks after weeks, preview after review, there seems to be one happy thing I can share that I can type my blog or have a deep breathe after advancing the time of my studying.



Keep the faith.





開學第一周可以說是相當"精彩"

或許是因為大家的年紀比較成熟

所以那種｢一回生｣的分組尷尬似乎也就司空見慣了

不過，因為開學日在星期三，加上中秋佳節

實際的上課數到今天也才步入第五天

一門必修｢總體經濟分析｣連兩次放假也沒見過｢待聘教師｣

原訂補課的星期六，也因為老師教授太忙，呈現放空的狀態

然而，放空的是時間，卻不是我個人的schedule

因為每周都有3~6篇的journal和paper

加上大家要先看完，然後抽時間討論

我很懷疑如果某這些假期卡住上課時間

這樣我根本就無法好好準備好每周的衝擊

開學三天的量就好像大學時代的期中考前期

如果硬要說甚麼快樂的事情

大概就是因為提早準備完複習或預習，

我能有一個下午好好喘息吧...

脫皮 Snake Molt

引用：http://blog.sina.com.cn/s/blog_4c69db7d01000bhv.html



我們在長大的過程當中，藉由尋覓偶像、消耗偶像，來辨別自己的真面目、來尋求活下去的熱量。

我們像不斷蛻皮、越長越大的蛇，而偶像呢，只是一個又一個供蛇來磨蹭、足以幫著幼蛇把舊皮蹭下來的，石頭或者樹幹罷了。

蛇蛻下來的殘破舊皮，黏在被棄的石頭或者樹幹上，隨風晃動著，是很殘酷的景象。就像搬家時，抽屜深處總會有幾個偶像簽給我們的簽名照，被毫不留情地清理丟掉。

成長很花力氣，用完了的垃圾，不太能一一呵護保存。

被長長一條人龍排隊索取簽名的作家、政客、明星，在簽名的時候，多少都該領悟，現在被如此興奮索求的簽名，將來都只是化為大家走過的路邊石頭樹幹而已。時機對的，能幫著那條幼蛇蹭去一層舊皮；時機不對的話，派不上一點用場，就被當垃圾丟到腦後去了。

如果我們的偶像，耗損報廢速度太快，我們會偶像缺貨。

當補貨的速度趕不上時，我們就無力可借，要「自力發電」了。

也很好吧，長大了。

偶像，在人生邁向終點的路上，是會愈來愈缺貨的。

序曲 Prelude of the Graduate

Most of college term begins tomorrow.

Though I still have one week off,

I will gradually collect my passion and faith standing by me.

Everytime, I feel regretted of my wishes that should have been complete among my resolution,

but most of my works had been done and I can reset new goals for my coming future.

In addition, try to lead another more autonomic life.

I don't have such an immense ambition like Ray or other gifted guys

becuse of having seldom confidence, experience and talents on myself;

however, I will do y best to  have a more steadfast life than anyone of you.



Don't worry about where freedom is that will set us more comfortable.

Willing to be lonely without fear.

There are happiness and loneliness in our life.

We should cherish ourselves and live a better tomorrow.



{Resolution of second half 2007}

1. Keep learning oral talking and vocabulary of English (NYT, WSJ).

2. Embrace more knowledge of Finance & Economy.

3. Meet a bosom friend and a nice girlfriend.

4. Get things done right away.

5. Develop good habits of jogging and being punctual.

6. Acquire some licenses.

你沒變 Unchanged

在探視父親、離開醫院之後

便前往中山女高對面的｢肥牛｣

老實說，我一點都不喜歡燒烤店

畢竟還要花錢自己烤肉

然後應付著兩個小時的急迫

失去坐下用餐和炭火煎燒的樂趣

換來一身自己都厭惡的煙硝味

好一個高中生活的寫照



我對自己的高中生活並不滿意

事實上，it really sucks

但回去面對一些人，讓自己面對一下我所討厭的事實

看看你不欣賞的人現在過得比自己好

這樣或許會多一點上進的鬥志吧...

大家也毫不例外的問問近況

畢竟同學會就是｢了解別人來確認自己是否還過得更好｣的一種reunion

已經缺乏了情感的基礎

看看別人作樂歡笑，也是一種面對自己落寞的好時機吧!!



有個天之驕子(會這樣說就是有天分、有外表又討人喜歡的那種人)

他說我一點都沒變，跟高中一樣

起頭說了這種不了解我的話，未免也太失敗了

但是面對別人，或許他是成功的

我怎麼沒變呢?!

應該是剛剪過頭髮，又變得比較蠢的樣子

外表還是一樣的nerd，如同高中時期

只是經歷過更多，裏˙Andreas已經是另一個靈魂了

(裏，就是在日文的意思是另一面)

可能更加憤世嫉俗，可能更加豁達

可是即便現在這樣假裝熟絡的十年高中友誼

重要的是靠自己的領悟，闖出一番小成就

會是所有人現階段的課題

試問：我怎麼沒變呢?

(比起在國防部勤指部帶小兵掃地就感到很累的預官排長)



此時此刻的十年，老早就drift away...

想說的話，正如這首｢兒歌｣的歌詞一樣成熟